“A Day with an Agitated Old Programming” by Harsha Ravindran (2016)

My Old Subconscious programming was agitated. How did I know that it was? And how did I fix it? Well, that’s a long story, so here we go! It started a few days ago when I came home from school, really tired. I had a long day and quite a fair bit of homework to do, so I didn’t manage to do anything much on that day except for rushing up to finish my homework so I could sleep. 

Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing bad about sleeping early or having a long day; but I noticed that this same situation continued to replay itself over the span of the next few days. It’s okay to rest and everything, but what I didn’t notice is that I was slowly getting off track from my goals, due to the fact that I didn’t really do much work during the past few days. 

The next thing I knew, it was Friday afternoon and my week was coming to an end. I looked back at the progress I made and was disappointed to see I didn’t do all the things that I planned to. That was the second trick of my old Sub, getting me emotional. I took a deep breath and tried to focus back on my goals. 

As I got back from school and continued my day, I noticed that my old school friends have started chatting on our old WhatsApp group again, they were planning an outing that my Mind was all too eager to go to. Trick number three of the Old Sub; activate the old environment. I did type in one or two lines to the group here and there at the beginning, but after a while, I tried to ignore it as much as I could, as I began to realize that it was my old programming and I would be giving it strength. 

Next, I was in the car with my mom and sister and I was telling them about how my phone kept re-starting for no apparent reason. Again, we agreed it was probably my Sub trying to get me frustrated and emotional since I normally used my phone for important stuff. 

When that was solved, my sister made an annoying comment about how careless I was with my phone (It wasn’t really an annoying comment, my Sub was just agitated, making me super- sensitive.) I did S.I.E.P and managed to keep my annoyance under control. But I could still feel my mind racing around, leaving me feeling all cloudy and muddled.
By now I was really sure my Sub was playing tricks on me. I took another deep breath. I knew that one of the root causes for my Old Programming to be able to cause so much damage was because of my goal repetition and the amount of work I was doing, decreased. I remembered my mentor telling me that it was unwise to battle your Old Sub, which would be an 800 pound gorilla in comparison to a puny human which was me. So I started by just repeating my goals.

As I repeated my goals, I started to feel better, my goals were reinforcing my new programming. Then, I did something which my sister taught me, and that I’ve tried before too, count every little thing that I did that was productive. It might have been just a few little stuff, but it did make me feel better. I felt much more focused after that and though my Sub was still panicking, I wasn’t so affected by it anymore and I was back to working on my goals by the next day.
So if your Old Programming is agitating you like how mine was, you can try doing what I did. Take a deep breath, repeat your goals, remind yourself that you’re doing fine and that you’re still progressing and take some action!

– Harsha

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